In. A. Funk.

I hate when it happens.

But it usually happens.

Not often.

Probably less than most.

But there are days when I am just in a funk.

A funk about it all. 

so this is your warning, if you don't want to hear me vent.

leave. right. now.

Come back tomorrow. 

It will be better. 

It will be Friday!!

"If I have said it once, I have said it a million times.."

{my mom always says that}

but I am the most impatient person you will ever. meet!

{I get it from my Dad}:

If I have something on my mind, I want to do it then.

If there is a problem, I want to fix it ASAP.

If I see something I want, I want to get it.

It's a fault. and I realize that.

I pray about it all the time. 

I think that is the first step.

But I think more than anything. 

I need to let go and let God!

He knows best.

In everything.

I get mad at myself for:

pressuring people.

rushing things.

over thinking.

blaming my self for other people's mistakes.

I constantly have to remind myself:

 I get reminded of this everyday.

that I can't always hold on to everyone I meet.

That some are meant to exit my life.

and yes, as much as it sucks.

meant to hurt me. lie to me. and make me humble. make me grow.

I need to forgive. let go. move on.

and smile about those people who stay around.

I can't decide if life is one big lesson.

or large amount of little lessons that make you grow.

with each step. situation. and relationship 

you learn more about people.

more about your self.

and really how strong you are.

It's a challenge.

I know that.

trying to remember your blessings and be thankful for them.

thankful for the constants in your life.

and

learning to take the variables as just that, variables.

realizing not every friend is really a "friend"

and that the truth isn't always honest. 

Maybe my "funk" today isn't really a funk.

but a moment of truth that I just needed to get out.

Either way.